Do not worry about initiations or marriage. Your Innermost is in charge of your life, and will provide what you need when you need it. Focus instead on your psychology.
Cast into the Furnace
“These [Spirits] are the generations or [Archetypes and Elemental Gods are the] offspring of the heavens and the earth,” Genesis 2: 4 [Yet, the Hasnamussen or failure spirits of Malkuth] are gathered from the words: “And Aaron took them and cast them into the furnace and formed of them a calf.” Then said the Israelites: “These (אלה eleh) be thy Elohim, oh Israel” (Exodus 32: 4). On the day that all these different spirits [Hasnamussen] were exterminated, the Holy One along with the Shechinah created [the Sixth Root Race] the heavens and the earth anew.” – Zohar
Three Pillars
“Three Sephiroth of form are found in the Pillar of Severity (Binah, Geburah and Hod).
“Three Sephiroth of energy are found in the Pillar of Mercy (Chokmah, Chesed and Netzach).
“The Pillar of Equilibrium is between these two pillars, where all of the distinct levels of consciousness are found (Kether, Tiphereth, Yesod, and Malkuth).” – Samael Aun Weor, Tarot and Kabbalah
Revelation 9, 1-11
And the fifth angel [Geburah-El, who is Samael, the power of God] sounded, and I saw a star [the creative light-power of Geburah] fall from [the] heaven [of Briah] unto the earth [Malkuth]: and to him [in Tiphereth] was given [Daath-Gnosis] the key of the bottomless pit [in Yesod]. And [by means of sexual alchemy] he opened the bottomless pit [Yesod]; and there arose a [passional] smoke out of the [sexual] pit, as the [scorching] smoke of a great [alchemical] furnace; and the sun [the inner-Christ] and the air [the inner Spirit] were darkened by reason of the [passional] smoke of the [sexual] pit. And there came out of the [passional] smoke locusts [lustful egos] upon the earth [physicality]: and [according to Karmasaya and Kamaduro] unto them was given power, as the scorpions of the earth have [poisoning sexual] power.